I weigh 20 stone and6 what's it like to
我重 20 英石，看到
see yourself I can't believe that's me I
自己感觉如何？我不敢相信那是我，我
didn't realize I was that size and
没有意识到我有那么大，
looking back I was
回想起来，我
huge when I was younger I didn't really
年轻时就很大了，我真的不
like my body never bothered me it wasn't
喜欢我的身体，从来没有打扰过我。
until secondary school and I had people
直到上中学时，人们才开始
make comments that I was fat and that I
评论说我很胖，而且我
wasn't very pretty I was unattractive
不太漂亮，我没有吸引力，
and it was just harsh comments all the
而且一直都是一些严厉的评论，
time some people made Facebook groups
有人在 Facebook 上创建
about me there used to be accounts on
关于我的群组，那里曾经有帐户
there saying I hate Crystal
说 我讨厌水晶，
and it was really bad the police had to
这真的很糟糕，警察必须
get involved to stop it and shut it all
介入阻止它并关闭这一切，
down I would never want my children to
我永远不会希望我的孩子
go through what I
经历我
did and like I wouldn't know I wouldn't
所做的事情，就像我不知道我
thinking of it now as a
现在不会把它想成 一个
mother I wouldn't want them to go
母亲，我不想让他们
through what I went through made me
经历我所经历的事情，这让我
realize that I am quite big and I don't
意识到我已经很大了，我
want to be this big what is the biggest
不想变得这么大，几天后
thing happening in your life right now
你生命中发生的最重要的事情是什么？
in a few days I'm flying to Turkey to
我飞往土耳其
have gastric sleeve surgery you have up
进行胃袖手术，您
to 80% of your your stomach removed I'm
的胃已切除了 80%，我
hoping to lose 10 Stone within a
希望在一年内减掉 10 石，能
year it's good to be back how old are
回来真是太好了，
you Kristen 28 years old I am 29 years
您多大了？克里斯汀 28 岁，我 29 岁，
old I weigh 20 stone and 6 currently I
我 目前体重 20 英石，6 英石
weigh 14 Stone 1.5 I am size 20 to 22
我体重 14 英石 1.5 我尺码 20 至 22
I'm currently a 14 to
我目前尺码 14 至
16 what's your favorite picture of
16 您目前最喜欢的照片是哪张
yourself at the moment my favorite
我最喜欢的
picture
照片
CH probably that one because it shows my
CH 可能是那一张，因为它显示了我的
tattoos
纹身
off this
这
one why did you like it so much I think
一张为什么 你这么喜欢它吗？我想这是
it's cuz
因为它不是
it's not something I'd normally
我通常会
wear it's not something I would have
穿的东西，这不是我当时会穿的东西，
worn back then and because my stomach's
而且因为我的肚子
more
更
Slimmer I feel like I can I pull it off
苗条了，我觉得我可以把它脱下来，
this is the dress that I wore last time
这是我上次穿的衣服
when I did my first interview it's a
当我第一次接受采访时，它是
3XL and then outfit and
3XL 衣服，然后是
large what do you eat in a day so in a
大号，你一天吃什么，所以
day it's like takeaways it's Burgers
一天就像外卖，汉堡，
it's crisps it's like all car I have my
薯片，就像所有的车，我有我的
CH I've got no chins anymore sometimes
CH，有时我已经没有下巴了 我
I'll buy a takeaway and I'll rip up the
会买一份外卖，然后撕掉
receipt so like no one finds out that
收据，这样就好像没有人发现
I've had it I could eat three or four
我吃过一样，我可以吃三四
meals and still not feel full at all I
顿饭，但仍然感觉不饱。我
look really weird I probably like trade
看起来很奇怪，我可能喜欢用
everything for food I love the taste of
一切来换取食物 我喜欢它的味道
it I love eating food in general it
我喜欢吃食物，总的来说，它
isn't very healthy it is quite bad my
不是很健康，非常糟糕，我
relationship with food has been really
与食物的关系非常
bad since I was probably 6 seven years
糟糕，因为我大概六
old I used to pinch bags of crisps and
七岁，我过去常常捏着一袋薯片，然后
ran outside and put them between next
跑到外面，把它放在外面。 他们在
door's fence and our fence so when they
隔壁的栅栏和我们的栅栏之间，所以当他们把
took the fence panel down there was like
栅栏板拆下来时，那里有
thousands of Cris packets and they knew
数千个危机包，他们知道
it was me after the operation I had to
手术后是我，我必须
do a liquid stage so I wasn't allowed to
做一个液体阶段，所以我不被允许
consume actual solids onto the actual
消耗实际的固体
eating stage of normal Foods I did do
正常食物的实际进食阶段 我确实
that on the 27th of March I wasn't
在 3 月 27 日这样做了，我对
excited to have food again I wasn't
再次吃东西并不感到兴奋，我不饿，
hungry so it was just hard because I
所以这很困难，因为我
just didn't crave the foods how do you
只是不渴望食物，
feel when you're eating eating foods
当你 我吃东西
like the best thing it is like heaven
就像吃最好的东西，就像天堂一样，
when I'm eating I feel relieved I feel
当我吃东西的时候，我感到如释重负，我觉得
like the stress is gone and I just feel
压力消失了，我只是觉得
like nothing in the world matters it's a
世界上没有什么重要的，这
bit it is an addiction it just feels I
有点，这是一种上瘾，我
guess it's like taking a drug when you
猜 这就像你吃食物时服用药物一样，
eating food it relieves everything
它可以缓解
you're going through and you forget the
你正在经历的一切，你忘记了
whole world you just you're in your own
整个世界，你只是在自己的
bubble with your food and that's how it
泡沫中与食物在一起，这就是
feels and it's afterwards like it's a
感觉，然后就像是一
cown I guess you like
头牛我猜你 就像
feel crap because you've eating all this
感觉很糟糕，因为你已经吃了所有这些
food and you don't need
食物，你不需要
to my option isn't to eat anymore when
我的选择是当我情绪低落时不再吃东西
I'm
down so my option is just try and find
所以我的选择就是尝试找到
something to keep me busy instead of
一些让我忙碌的东西而不是
thinking of food is there something you
考虑食物 有一些你
miss I don't think I miss eating food I
想念的东西 我不认为我想念吃东西 我
think what does upset me sometimes is
想有时让我心烦意乱的是
when I feel the need to eat and I
当我觉得需要吃东西而
physically can't because of my
由于我的限制而我身体上不能吃东西时
restriction how do your friends and
你的朋友和
family see you right now my Nan's really
家人现在怎么看你 我奶奶的 真的很
supportive of it and like she's got bow
支持它，就像她得了弓
cancer so she's terminal and she said to
癌，所以她已经晚期了，她
me on New Year's Day she touched like
在元旦那天对我说，她
touched my waist and went around and
摸了摸我的腰，然后绕了一圈
goes I really hope I do get to see you
走，我真的希望我能看到你
slim so that's give me a bit of like
苗条，所以这给了我一点
push to like I need to do this like and
我需要尽可能快地做到这一点，
as quick as possible because I know like
因为我知道
she was given 18 months and that ends
她被给予了 18 个月的时间，到了
February I'm proud but the
二月结束，我很自豪，但那
person
个人
sorry it's my n cuz she's not here to
很抱歉，这是我的，因为她不在这里
see it
看到它，
sorry when did she pass away she passed
对不起，她什么时候做的 去世了，她
away on the 10th of
于 4 月 10 日去世，
April I just thought what the [\h__\h] is
我只是想，当
the point in me doing this when she's
她
not here to see it and that is how I
不在这里看到这一切的时候，我他妈的还有什么意义，这就是我的
felt and I hated it when she first pass
感受，当她第一次经过时，我讨厌它
P I went to McDonald's cuz I went what s
P 我去了麦当劳，因为我 这是怎么回事，
it I ordered a large Big Mac meal you
我点了一份巨无霸大餐，你
can't not eat certain foods just because
不能因为做
you've had weight loss surgery or
了减肥手术或者
because of how you feel you have to
因为你觉得你必须
process everything so I tried to
处理所有事情而不吃某些食物，所以我试图
normalize the fact that yes I'm I've had
正常化这样一个事实：是的，我' 我做了
surgery I'm eating a Big Mac but there's
手术，我正在吃一个巨无霸，但
nothing you could do about it and so
你对此无能为力，所以
what if you're going to say I'm going to
如果你要说我要
put weight back on I need this and I had
恢复体重，我需要这个，我咬了
three bites and I couldn't eat it I
三口，我该怎么办？ 不能吃它
don't think I'd be where I am today if
如果不是她，我想我不会有今天的成绩
it wasn't for
her January 2022 I was looking into
2022 年 1 月 我正在
gastric leave surgery in the UK and it
英国考虑进行胃离开手术，费用
was up to £10,000 which I thought it's
高达 10,000 英镑，我认为这是
impossible for me to save that cuz
不可能的 我要存钱，因为
that's a deposit for a house I decided
这是买房子的押金 我决定
to book it to have it in Turkey it's
预订它，以便在土耳其拥有它
costing
花费
£2,700 where would you like to lose
2,700 英镑 你想在哪里
weight my thighs and my hips my bum and
减肥 我的大腿和臀部 我的屁股和
some of my belly I want it to be a bit
我的腹部 我希望它是一个 更
more flatter can you show us where you
平坦一点你能告诉我们你
think you've lost the most weight here
认为你在哪里减掉了最多的体重吗
on my stomach definely from looking back
我的肚子肯定是从回顾过去
my stomach's a lot more flatter I didn't
我的肚子更平坦了我并没有
really realized I was that size and
真正意识到我有那么大，
looking back I was huge but now looking
回头看我很大但现在看起来
at me now I'm quite I'm I'm so much
现在对我来说，我很确定，我太小
smaller and what misconceptions are
了，
there around surgery like this you have
关于这样的手术有什么误解，你
to have tried everything before just
必须在跳入这个之前尝试过一切，
jumping into this because this isn't it
因为这不是
isn't an easy way out at all they don't
一个简单的出路 他们不
understand the mental struggle or the
理解手术时
physical struggle you have to go through
你必须经历的精神斗争或身体斗争，
with having surgery it's not just a
这不仅仅是一个
quick fix and then you're skinny you
快速解决方案，然后你很瘦，你
have to still work out eat the correct
仍然必须锻炼吃正确的
foods have protein you can eat all foods
食物有蛋白质你可以吃所有食物
it's just the how you eat what are you
这只是你的饮食方式 你
most worried about at the moment I know
现在最担心的是什么 我知道
about the risks blood clots um leakage
有风险 血栓 嗯
of your stomach being fed fruit a
胃漏 吃水果
feeding tube for the rest of my life if
在我的余生中使用饲管 如果
it's going to help me be a bit more
这能帮助我变得更
healthier I'd rather go through all that
健康一点 我宁愿经历这一切，也不愿过
than live the life that I'm currently
我目前在
living emotionally this is one of the
情感上生活的生活，这是
hardest things that I think I've ever
我认为我经历过的最困难的事情之一，
been through and it's it's been hard
since to Geto I'm now struggling with
自从到 Geto 以来，这一直很困难，我现在正在与
body dysmorphia which is where I can
身体作斗争 畸形症是指我
look at myself in the mirror and I still
在镜子里看着自己，我仍然
see this person that's not me but it's
看到这个人，那不是我，但那是
my eyes it's still me my mind but it's
我的眼睛，它仍然是我，我的思想，但它
not me in images I'm still trying to
不是图像中的我，我仍在努力
find who I am because the person I was
寻找我是谁，因为我的人
back then is not me now I hid myself
那时的我不是我，现在我把自己隐藏
away I didn't make friends whereas now
起来，我没有交朋友，而现在
I've got more I make more of an effort
我得到了更多，我比以前长大时付出了更多的努力，我
than what I used to when I was bigger I
feel so much better and I just feel like
感觉好多了，我只是觉得
I'm free from covering up and hiding who
我 不再掩盖和隐藏
I was and now people can see who I am
我是谁，现在人们可以看到我是谁
and who the real me
以及真正的我是谁
is